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Are you listening to the voice of your soul?

When times get rough and things go wrong, sometimes I wonder if I’ve misread my intuition or why I wasn’t “warned.”

I don’t have an answer for the warnings, exactly. When my friend was in a bad motorcycle accident years ago, I had a strong sense of anxiety all day before I found out what happened. When I was in a car accident a few years ago, though, I had no hints there was anything wrong that day.

And was there anything wrong? It’s hard for me to answer that too. Does being intuitive mean we are always “saved” from challenging and painful experiences? When I think about it from a soul perspective, I have to say: I doubt it. My personal belief system tells me that we “sign up” for life experiences that as spiritual beings in human form we want to judge as right or wrong, good or bad. Perhaps from a soul perspective, these experiences are purely neutral, and designed for growth.

I’m reminded of Sandra Ingerman’s Shamanic Journeying book, where she asked her higher self in fear, “But what if I end up homeless?” Her higher self’s response? “Wouldn’t that be interesting?”

And perhaps we just don’t always get to know.

Is there such a thing as “right” or “wrong”?

And, what if there is no right or wrong? What if life just is, and our intuition is our guide to a more joyful experience of life — but one that isn’t necessarily always easier? Is life truly a school ground designed for us to learn and grow, whether it’s hard or easy or fun?

It’s impossible to know.

We have experience

We do, however, have experience.

We have the experience of suddenly knowing something, without knowing why we know it.

We see flashes of images or hear sudden phrases, like the day I was driving by the hospital while I was pregnant and thought, “That’s where my son will be born” — EVEN THOUGH I was planning a home birth.

Do we listen?

Which brings me to my point:

When I had that thought, I very quickly thought, “No, that can’t be right. I’m not having my baby there.” And I didn’t stop to explore that intuitive (and ultimately correct) insight to understand it. Similarly, when my friend was in the motorcycle accident, I didn’t take the time to tune in to my anxiety and understand it. It was only after the fact that I understood it.

My truest experience of intuition is that it’s a very quiet knowing thought or glimmer of an idea — a whisper — and easy to overlook if I don’t discipline myself to pay attention. I like to think I’m getting better at this, but I’m continually reminded that there are more opportunities to listen.

Are you listening?

Seems like my constant lesson in life is listening, trusting, and listening some more. What about you?

Your turn

What’s your experience? You know I love to hear from you.

Warmly,

Jenna

 

Coming Attractions

~> September 6th. Last day to register for the next Life Purpose Breakthrough Group happening on October 4th. These groups always sell out (only 1 spot remaining) so if you want to discover your life purpose through the remarkably accurate tool of hand analysis, sign up here now: http://LifePurposeBreakthrough.com

~> September 27th. Register by September 27th for the next 4-week session of my “Just Do The Writing” Accountability Circle (starts October 1st). For serious writers and for writers who want to get serious about their writing. http://JustDoTheWriting.com

 

What I'm Up To

~> Ongoing. Working on my script, Progeny, with screenwriter Chris Soth after finishing the ProSeries.*

~> Sadly not going to Hollywood in a couple of weeks due to some personal family stuff, but I’m already looking ahead to attending the next event if possible.

~> Sacred writing time. Early mornings and Fridays.

~> Reading: Harry Potter & the Half-Blood Prince.

 

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Graduates in Cap and Gown

Too cool for school?

Understanding your Life School is an important part of fulfilling your Life Purpose.

Your Life School is like a broad training program that gives you the lifetime tools you need to achieve your Life Purpose and address your Life Lesson. Both your purpose and lesson play out within your Life School, so it’s worth paying attention to and mastering.

I like to compare your Life School and Purpose together to a college degree program. While you might major in English, just the way you focus on your Life Purpose, the English department is part of the broader School of Arts & Humanities, very much akin to the way your purpose plays out in the larger context of your Life School.

Each Life School has a particular challenge associated with it. In the realm of hand analysis, you’re always looking for the “just right” place on the pendulum swing from one extreme to the other. It’s like your own personal Goldilocks mission, should you choose to accept it. :)

How you can use your Life School information

When things start going south, it’s usually a challenge associated with your Life Lesson (because you’re not working on it) or your Life School (because you’ve strayed from the “just right” path).

For example, in my case, as a School of Service trainee, if I’m having trouble and it’s not associated with my Lesson, I usually find that I’ve over-given and gotten resentful (one extreme in the School of Service) or retreated too far from truly being of service to my tribe into self-indulgence (the other extreme), rather than walking the win-win path of it being good for me AND good for them.

I’ve gotten much better at this over the years, particularly in the work realm, but it came back to bite me when I had my son: I went too far into self-sacrifice mode and wasn’t doing enough to take care of myself. And voilà: Instant service backlash.

I’ve learned to use my giving-receiving radar to help me stay on track with what’s working for me and what’s not. And sometimes I have to be reminded to do so — hence the opportunities created by my Life School = more chances to learn.

How your Life School is determined

Your Life School is determined by the number of a particular type of fingerprint you have to qualify for a particular school.

There are four Life Schools: Service, Love, Wisdom, and Peace.

(A funny side note is that I was initially so distracted by wanting to be in school of Wisdom that I hardly noticed how accurately the School of Service fit me! Can you say “blind spot”?)

  • The School of Service is designed to teach you the path of consciousness and about true, joyful service that is good for you and everyone around you. It requires that you master serving yourself before you can be of true service in the world. Whorl fingerprint types are associated with the School of Service.
  • The School of Love is designed to teach you the path of the heart, and about balanced, authentic emotional expression that stays current in the moment. Love students learn to value, trust, and express their emotions regardless of the perceived impact or response from other people. Loop fingerprints belong to the School of Love.
  • The School of Wisdom teaches you to honor the path of “thoughtful action” and the ability to take meaningful, conscious action rather than sitting on the fence thinking and analyzing endlessly or taking overly reckless action. The fingerprint type associated with the School of Wisdom are Tented Arches.
  • The School of Peace follows the path of the body and the physical, and gives you opportunities to explore what it means to feel safe in your body and on the planet and learn to neither rush around in adrenaline mode nor fall into a spaced out place. Arch fingerprint patterns indicate the School of Peace.

It is possible to be in more than one school, which results in a combined school. For example, someone with the qualifying number of Loop prints might also have one or more Tented Arch fingerprints, putting them in the school of “Wise Relationships.”

Remember, your Life School gives you the context for your Lesson and Purpose, and the tools you need to help you accomplish them. So while being an artist or writer might be your Life Purpose, your Life School will bring a unique flavor or theme to your work that will help clarify what you’re up to and why.

If finding your Life Purpose and Life Lesson interests you, I invite you to join me for one of my upcoming Life Purpose Breakthrough Groups or for a private hand analysis session.

Jill“I was amazed at the accuracy of my hand analysis with Jenna.”

“I was amazed at the accuracy of my hand analysis with Jenna. It really was uncanny how the reading mirrored me exactly! I’m moving in new directions now, and the timing of my hand reading was exactly right — it highlighted the major issues I’m dealing with and pointed out some I hadn’t identified yet. Knowing I am in both the schools of Service and Peace, and my life lesson and life purpose, is incredibly valuable for me in taking my next step toward Authentic Work. A truly worthwhile experience.”
~ Jill Winski, The Artist’s Nest, www.JillWinski.com

“During my hand print reading… Everything Jenna said felt true to my experience yet surprising and deeply insightful.”

“When I hear something that resonates with my inner being I get shivers through my body. During my hand print reading with Jenna last night I had dozens of shivers. Everything she said felt true to my experience yet surprising and deeply insightful. This was the exact right time for me to receive this information. I feel excited and inspired by the clarity and new paths that feel available to me now.”
~ Sherris Cottier Shank, Gem Carver, www.GemScapes.com

hands

What is hand analysis, anyway?

So yeah. In addition to being a writer and a coach, I’m a hand analyst.

Many people assume that hand analysis is the same thing as palmistry and dismiss it without giving it much thought.

It’s not.

Hand analysis is a repeatable system of analysis created by a man named Richard Unger, author of the book Life Prints.

The fact that the system is repeatable means that — barring human error — two different hand analysts should be able to examine your hands, primarily your fingerprints, and tell you the same information. Many people therefore call it “scientific hand analysis”.

About 5 months before you are born, while you are in utero, your fingerprints form. They don’t change over the course of your lifetime. Therefore, the lifelong aspects of your “soul psychology” are determined from your fingerprints:

How I “read” your hands

When I look at your hands, I look for fingerprint markings, called dermatoglyphs, on your finger pads and on your palms. (Yes, really, you can have fingerprint patterns on your palms!)

As I examine them, I look to see what types of fingerprints you have and where they are located.

The primary types of fingerprint patterns are Whorls, Loops, Tented Arches, and Arches:

By first determining the number of the types of prints you have, I can determine which of the four Life Schools you are in (Service, Love, Wisdom, or Peace).

Then I look to see which prints are your relatively highest ranking and lowest ranking:

  • Your lowest ranking prints are combined with their specific locations to comprise your Life Lesson.
  • Your highest ranking prints with their specific locations become your Life Purpose.

For instance, someone with high ranking prints on right thumb and right ring finger would have a Life Purpose of “Successful Artist in the Spotlight“, while someone with high ranking prints on their left thumb and left ring finger would have a Life Purpose of “Innovator in the Community“.

What does it all mean?

Nominally, there are 10 different Life Purposes and Life Lessons, but once they become combined in multiples and/or with palmar dermatoglyphs, the possibilities become endless. It is also possible to have one’s purpose or lesson dictated by one’s Life School, if only one print type dominates the hand.

On top of all this, there are also Gift Markings in the hands that lend additional information to the Life Purpose picture — these are the tools that help you implement your life purpose. (Again, more on this in a future article.)

A good hand analyst will help you put it all together in a way that both makes sense and gives you usable information about how to start implementing what you’ve learned.

I find that artists, creatives, and writers particularly benefit from understanding their life purpose because of the immense validation that usually occurs. Many writers are on the fence about whether or not they “should really be writing” (ditto with artists) and I find, more often than not, that there is some validation of creative expression in the hands that helps to melt away fears, doubts, and excuses like butter on a hot pancake.

If you’d like to find out more or have your hands analyzed, consider joining one of my upcoming Life Purpose Breakthrough Group sessions or booking a private Life Purpose hand analysis session with me. All sessions are held by phone. The next Life Purpose Breakthrough Group session will be held on Thursday, March 29th, and registration closes on Thursday, March 1st (so we have time to mail your hand printing kit). Details for the group session are here.

Grace“As you showed me what’s written on my own hands, layer after layer of fears and excuses floated away.”

“Yikes! No more hiding. As you showed me what’s written on my own hands, layer after layer of fears and excuses floated away, revealing a core of certainty that now steers me true. Without our session, my inner conviction would’ve been a ghost of what it is now. Since our session, pieces keep falling into place. I’m calm and focused and excited all at once. I know my story. Thank you so much for reading me to myself.”
~ Grace Kerina, www.GraceKerina.com

Miriam“It’s like a map, an easy to follow map when I get off track.”

“I am a curious person and so when I am offered a new way of looking at myself, I usually try it out. The hand analysis I received from you actually synthesized many of the things I already knew, and gave me strategies for using my gifts and avoiding the penalties of not using them. It’s all coming together. I’m kind of freaked out about this. So, it’s a good thing you gave me strategies. There have been like 3 things that I have had a sneaking suspicions about that you just nailed. Now I know what to work on and that is a relief. It’s like a map, an easy to follow map when I get off track.”
~ Miriam Ortiz Y Pino, Organizer, www.MoreThanOrganized.net

No Matter Where You Go, There You Are

One of the things I absolutely LOVE about doing life purpose work is that no matter where you go, there you are.

You simply cannot escape yourself, no matter how much you might want to. This is both hard news and good news, in my opinion.

Here’s why:

You cannot escape your lessons.

You cannot escape the challenges, struggles, and growth you signed up for. There will always be more opportunities to learn, to grow, to do better. To be a better human.

Similarly, you cannot escape your destiny.

You cannot escape the truth, beauty, wisdom, and power of who you really are. It will always find you.

You have the choice.

You have the opportunity to choose to meet your lessons and your destiny consciously and head on. You can make the most of them, or not. But there will always be chances to choose. When one door closes, another one opens.

 

I’m opening a door today if you’d like to walk through it with me and meet your destiny with your eyes wide open. There are still 2 spaces available in my Intuition & Inner Wisdom Group and in my Creativity Group for my Life Purpose Breakthrough Sessions. Registration CLOSES tonight, May 12th at Midnight Eastern Time. Register here to reserve your spot to find your Life Lesson and Life Purpose and find your way to where you belong in the world.

 

Free Recording: The Truth About Finding & Living Your Life Purpose

We had a great TeleCall and Chat today about “The Truth About Finding & Living Your Life Purpose.”

On the call, in addition to answering listener questions, we talked about what it means to find and live your life purpose, why it’s not the panacea it appears to be, but why it’s also one of the most inspiring and motivating pieces of information you can have in your life tool kit.

I also shared 3 inspiring questions you can use to help you stay on track with living your life purpose.

Participants said the questions helped shifted their energy and perspective about themselves and their lives.

I spoke a bit about hand analysis as well, which is the powerful technology I use to illuminate your Life Purpose — how it works and why I think it’s the best way to discover your Life Purpose I’ve seen (and I’ve explored many methods).

 

Remember, if you want to find your Life Purpose, you’ll want to join one of my group Life Purpose Breakthrough Sessions today, May 12th before the Midnight Eastern registration deadline.

 

 


Ending the Struggle and Facing the Fear

I’ve been thinking a lot about “ending the struggle against yourself” and “not being so hard on yourself” because that ranked so highly in my recent poll.

And as I was reviewing my morning pages today as part of an Artist’s Way exercise, it struck me that the struggle against ourselves is really all about avoiding our fears.

And from there I saw the massively, insanely clear connection between the ways I struggle with myself and my own life lesson, which is “Trusting my Creativity.”

The same thing is true with ALL the ways I struggle with myself. I struggle with myself around behaviors I wish I wouldn’t do — but they are all just creative blocks in disguise.

Here’s what I mean:

In my own case, a lot of my struggles with myself are around falling into feeling apathetic — a classic creative block. I feel like, “I don’t care,” or “It doesn’t matter,” or “I don’t really want to do it anyway,” so… I get stuck on taking action on my creative dreams.

But what’s really going on when I feel apathetic is that I am actually feeling the raw, naked fear — which to my body feels like a core survival fear — of going into my creativity and seeing what happens.

My fear has a lot of stories about what that might look like. (They aren’t pretty.)

But my heart and spirit have an entirely different story.

(I’m reminded here of my teacher Sonia saying, “Get a new story.”)

The story of my heart and spirit is this:

You are a writer.

You are an artist.

You are here to express yourself creatively and to be received for your creative expression.

You were born to do this.

If you are a creative soul struggling with creative blocks, perhaps you’ll take heart from my Artist’s Way and True Spirit Work inspired affirmation, “I courageously pursue my artistic passions, no matter what, pain, doubt, or terror I might face in the process.”

How Does This Play Out For You?

I’d love to hear from you about:

  • How do you struggle against yourself?
  • What fear are you avoiding facing?
  • What’s the new story you want to be telling yourself?

If you think you might just be in the eensy teensy tiniest bit of struggle against yourself, come and find out what your life lesson is (and your purpose!), once and for all. It’s like having the secret code that will help you unlock and unleash yourself from the inside out. Amen to that, sistah! Join one of my Life Purpose Breakthrough Groups (only one spot left in the Big Vision Group) and get your head on straight with what’s really going on so you can bust yourself on your blocks and get a move on with your Big Dreams. Finally. What a relief! Registration ends May 12th (that’s this Thursday, people).

 

Coming Attractions

~> May 10th, 2011. My Artist’s Way Accountability & Support Group continues. Details.

~>May 26th to May 28th, 2011. Attending Andrea J. Lee’s Wealthy Thought Leader event via simulcast.

~>May 28th, 2011. Next broadcast of my Dreamification Radio show on Radio Lightworker. Details. Listen from anywhere in the world to this Internet radio show.

~>June 9th, 16th, and 23rd, 2011. My brand new Life Purpose Breakthrough Group event series for getting you back on track with what you were put here to do will be happening on June 9th, 16th, and 23rd — but you have to register now (by May 12th). Three groups are available: Intuition & Inner Wisdom, Creativity and Big Vision. Only 4 spots available in each group. Is one of them yours? Find out more here.

 

The Secret Magic of Your Life Lesson

On your quest to discover your Life Purpose, do not overlook the magic that is your Life Lesson.

Your Life Lesson Is What You Are Here to Teach

I firmly believe in the adage that “you teach what you are here to learn.”

Your Life Lesson is the perfect insight to exactly what it is that you’ve signed up to master in this lifetime.

The skills, knowledge, and training that you need to help you overcome your own bête noir will masterfully support you to help other people with their own struggles, whether you help them literally and directly as a teacher or through another means, like through your creative work and how that work affects and heals them.

Your Life Lesson can and should be a central part of your Right Work.

Use Your Life Lesson to Unlock Your Life Purpose

Understanding your Life Lesson is actually the secret key to “unlocking” your Life Purpose.

What does that mean, unlocking?

Each of us is born to a certain task — a certain way of being and taking action in the world. This is your Life Purpose — the Big Thing, that when fulfilled, puts you in a place of true alignment with yourself and your inner Essence.

Once you discover what that is, you can set out on a course of pursuing it, of making it a central theme in your life, and of organizing your Right Work around it.

But interestingly enough, you’ll find that your Life Lesson will keep cropping up along the way, tripping you up, causing challenges, and generally throwing you off course, but when you “exalt” your life lesson, which means that you treat it almost as if it is your life purpose, you’ll find that it can become your greatest ally.

In other words, you want to discover what the inverse of your life lesson would be, and do that.

Here’s an example:

Deborah‘s life lesson is “Time, Money, & Integrity Issues.” The exalted form of that lesson is to become a Businessperson.

Her life purpose is “Visionary Healer,” but in order to fully embrace and develop her vision and her healing ability, she will not only need to clean up her time, money, and integrity responsibilities, but she’ll ultimately also want to devote some energy to becoming a masterful businesswoman as well.

That’s when her visionary healing abilities will really take off.

Exalting your lesson is what truly allows you to embrace your life purpose.

Your Life Lesson Is Your Blind Spot

Anytime you find yourself faltering with achieving your purpose or your Big Dreams, look to your lesson.

Your life lesson is your blind spot. You won’t know you’re doing it to yourself unless you really learn to watch for the red flags and be alert to the signals that your life lesson is coming on.

Even advanced students of life are still working on their life lessons. (Remember what I said last time? If you were done, you’d be dead. :) )

Here are some general red flags for you:

  • What do you often like to say you’ve already solved or mastered? Big red flag. “Methinks the lady doth protest too much.”
  • What do you find yourself getting pissed off at other people for? Again with the red flag. “You spot it, you got it.”
  • What repeated challenges do you find yourself bumping into again and again (and again)? Look carefully, there are variations on the theme that can LOOK like something else, but then wham, turns out it’s that same old thing. Another red flag. “Here we go again.”

Once you’ve had your hands analyzed, you’ll discover the specific red flags that show up for your particular life lesson (or combination of lessons), and you’ll be able to pinpoint it with an eagle eye, for ease of transformation.

(For a list of the 10 primarily life lessons, red flags, and exalted forms, go here.)

Bottom line, remember the power and importance of your Life Lesson and how it can guide, impact, and unleash your life when given its proper due.

If finding your Life Purpose and Life Lesson interests you, I invite you to join me for one of my upcoming Life Purpose Breakthrough Groups or for a private hand analysis session.

 

I Can See Clearly Now, The Rain Is Gone

One of my Life Lessons is confusion. I can easily fall into confusion and uncertainty about what I want to Do or how I want to do It or if I even want to do It at all.

I can end up spinning in circles pretty easily. So I thought I’d remind us all about what confusion looks like and how to get out of it.

Confusion shows up when:

  • You aren’t listening to your deeper self.
  • You aren’t speaking the highest truth you know.
  • You’ve lost touch with your Big Dream or Big Idea.
  • You aren’t taking Right Action on making your Big Dreams real.
  • You aren’t in connection with your Big Dream Believers — the people that believe in you even when you can’t believe in yourself.
  • You’ve bumped into an unexpected obstacle and you aren’t sure what to do next.
  • You have lots of ideas and you don’t know where to start.
  • Your creative fears are masquerading as confusion or apathy (jackpot!).

Here’s what you can do to find your way out of the fog to the rainbow of clarity you’re looking for:

  • Tap into your deeper self – visualizations, coaching with a spiritual coach, or automatic writing are all powerful tools to help you get there.
  • Speak your truth until you can’t think of a single other thing to say. 
  • Write like your life depends on it. Write morning pages, write words, write articles.
  • Remind yourself of your Big Idea and what it is that you were put here to do. I have my clients craft Vision Intention statements so they can go back to their ideas when they lose their way. Get your hands analyzed if you haven’t already so you know your life purpose.
  • Take action. “Sometimes you have to make the right decision and sometimes you have to make the decision right,” as Dr. Phil likes to say. If you find out you’ve taken the wrong action, try something else.
  • Put yourself in a safe situation where like minded folks (other Big Dream Believers) can truly support you to find your clarity (come to my Voice Your Vision retreat in 2 weeks if you’re wanting this kind of support).
  • Take an objective look at your obstacles. Is there a way around them you haven’t already considered? Some radical or risky step you’ve not allowed yourself to consider but might actually be the exact solution you need? (Sell the house. Move to another area. Quit the crappy job. Ask for a loan. Tell off your grouchy cousin. Find a way to forgive yourself.)
  • Pick a place to start. You can always change your mind. If you had to pick one idea to start with right now, what would it be?
  • Core dump your fears onto paper until they lose their power.

One of the funny things I’ve noticed is that deeper down inside the quiet that is my higher, Essential Self, the truth is consistently there, reminding me of what I really want despite all my head spinning to the contrary. My deeper self ALWAYS knows what the Real Plan is, even when I’m thinking I’m I have no idea what to do. And if I just give her a chance to show up, she does.

Then I find out that I’m a lot less confused than I thought I was.

What about you?

 

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What’s Jenna Up To?

~> April 19th, 2011. My Artist’s Way Accountability & Support Group continues. Details.

~> April 20, 2011. Speaking at the Thriving Practice Workshop Series in Berkeley, California on creating a web presence and using social media to reach clients.

~>April 23, 2011. Next broadcast of my Radio Lightworker radio show “Dreamification” on “Visioning and Moving Ahead With Your Dreams Even in the Face of Fear.” Details. Listen from anywhere in the world to this Internet radio show.

~> April 29th & 30th, 2011. My next Voice Your Vision retreat in Berkeley, California. Registration CLOSES APRIL 18th . Special savings if you’ve already had your hands analyzed. Check out this video to get a sense of what it’s like to work with me in this way.

~> May 26th, 2011. My first Life Purpose Breakthrough Group. The special focus is: Intuition & Inner Wisdom — discover how your intuition shows up in the gifts markings in your hands. Registration CLOSES APRIL 28th .

If You Love What You Do, Will You Love It ALL the Time?

Yesterday I went to an art store on my Artist’s Way Artist Date.

I found myself in tears over a 28″ x something stretched canvas that made me remember how much I’ve always wanted to try oil painting. I walked away from it quickly and then turned to go back to see what else there was to “see.”

I remembered my old boyfriend who was a “real” artist (Julia Cameron says shadow artists like to hang out with real artists and project their creativity onto their partners. Um. Here!).

I remembered how he had painted a picture of the girl he was cheating on me with and tried to pretend that it was just a gift for a friend.

On a similar piece of canvas.

I remembered how he had made me a painting a long time before I and I hadn’t liked it and didn’t know what to do about it. He never did give it to me, and I never did know how to handle it.

Double ouch.

And then the tears spiked again over a beautiful “artist’s marker pad” that was a perfect vehicle for the diagrams I’ve been wanting to do. (I brought it home.)

As I walked through the aisles of the art store, I was reminded of all the delicious art tools I already own, but that have been untouched for so long.

I wondered why I stopped doing the watercolors that delighted me so much once upon a time. Did I stop simply because I stopped traveling overseas so often? Had I lost the connection because I’d given up urban design work? Did it just start to feel too much like work?

All around the store I found reminders of my past creative endeavors (fabric dyeing, rug making, drafting and tracing, portfolios, yummy art supply containers) and so many possible future adventures. I thought about how I couldn’t afford to buy all the supplies so there was no point in learning a new craft.

But I also considered how much I love learning the tools of my craft — whatever it is — designing, drafting, drawing, coaching, website making — I am such the perpetual student. A true renaissance soul (or “scanner“). And how I wished I could just simply be a perpetual student (oh, wait a minute, I kind of already am) with a patron who wanted to sponsor all my wild ideas and wonderful projects (well, not so much that part, at least not yet).

Whilst all this transpired, I continued a conversation I’ve been having with myself for the past few days.

If I love what I do, will I love it ALL the time?

Will it ALWAYS feel easy and like I can’t wait to leap out of bed in the morning?

My screenwriting teacher often spoke of the pain of writing, the loneliness of it. That it would feel like swimming in a vast sea, just trying to get to the next “tent pole” in a script as if it were a buoy you could grab hold of to save you from drowning.

There are days when writing feels like a wretched chore. When it feels like I’ll never (ever) succeed at it, that my work will never be any good, and my ideas are not clever or brilliant enough.

But if they are my ideas, are they not enough? Isn’t it enough to write what I’ve been given, unleash my creativity as far as I can and hope for the best?

Plus, as a hand analyst, I’ve come to embrace the truth that our “hard stuff” — our Life Lesson — is the secret to breaking through in our lives. I look for where my fear comes up biggest and loudest, and go there. Is that always going to feel easy and flowing and delightful? I doubt it.

At the same time, there are days when writing feels like the most precious gift I’ve ever experienced.

A freedom to put words on the page and become one with them in the most amazing discovery of story and flow and ideas and energy that I’ve ever seen.

I figure there are good days and there are hard days.

What do you think?

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In the spirit of Havi Brooks’ “Comment Zen,” I have this request:

Since I am exploring how to be more transparent, raw, vulnerable, and in my full, messy delicious creative energy in my posts, here’s what I would love to hear:

  • Your thoughts about this same subject in your OWN life. <— This is my favorite!
  • If my writing sparks something for you.
  • About your own stories, ideas, musings, and wonderings.

And I would love to skip:

  • You feeling like you need to take care of me, give me useful suggestions, or other well-meaning but unsolicited advice.

Thank you!

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What’s Jenna Up To?

~> March 8th, 2011. My Artist’s Way Accountability & Support Group continues. We’ve just gotten started if you’re wishing you had jumped in. Details.

~> March 26th, 2011. First broadcast of my brand new Radio Lightworker radio show on Big Dreams. Stay tuned for details!

~> April 29th & 30th, 2011. My next Voice Your Vision retreat will be held in Berkeley, California. Specific registration details to be announced. A special savings will be available if you’ve already had your hands analyzed.

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